Whether its happy tears or tears of joy, something people might don’t know about me is that behind my everyday smile there’s so many emotions going on. I know I’m not perfect. I know I’m not the nicest, sweetest, cutest, best looking or what so ever person walking on this earth. I am very aware of that.

I have made a lot of mistakes in my life and maybe I don’t always learn from it, but it’s a part of me. A part of who I am. That mistake, it was I who made it. No one forced me to, I had choices in my life. Either you hide behind it or you stand up for yourself and admit what you did so that you can move on.

I don’t like being judged or judge other people but truth is there will always be people who will judge you and you will always judge people. It’s not easy to lean on people these days. You can’t trust everybody or in my case, find it really hard to trust people at all.

I was reading my old blog earlier today from 2011,2012 and I just realized by every word I read, I was so happy. I had everything I could ever dream of. My friends and I were closer than ever, my family and I was spending so much time together and I had a boyfriend who I loved with all my heart and he loved me back.

Things change in life. Even if we don’t like it. We lose friends, we grow apart, we talk less, we don’t keep in touch even though we said we would and we break our promises about a forever living life together. We loved and we’ve lost.

Today it’s feb the 2th and it’s just the beginning of 2013. This year I graduate and after graduation my whole new life starts again. Last summer, was one of the best summers ever and the summer before that. After this summer the real life begins. High School will be over and what you have in front of you is reality. Life.

There’s so many things I want to do. I wanna reach my goals in life and fulfill my dreams. The dream of becoming a big photographer, write my own novel, meet people that inspires me just basically live the life I have always been dreaming of to live. Truth is there’s nothing that can stop me. I’m lucky to be born in this century with all these opportunities cause today, is never too late.

So yeah things changed. I’m not in a relationship anymore, my friends and I are not that close as we use to be, I lost a lot of motivation for my photographing and my family and I don’t spend that much time together anymore but guess what, I learned to accept it. One of the hardest things in life is to accept things the way they are even if we don’t want to.

A very wise man who use to stay my heart very close always said “head high beautiful, let the world see what an amazing and beautiful person you are.” So I will. For every door that closes another one opens. If you’re not happy my readers, change it. If you’re lost, find yourself and if you’re scared, it’s okay. Being scared is not always a bad thing. Go by your gut feeling. Don’t think too much, just close your eyes for a few seconds, take a deep breath and go. Go after your dreams. Chase it. Don’t lose it but most of all, don’t ever give up on what’s yours. Life is too short so make it the best way YOU want it to be.

Be a role model, be a better person, be free but don’t ever forget to be YOU cause everybody else is already taken.